Hey you guys I remembered I have a blog again!

It's like Groundhog Day -- I feel like I'm finally breaking free of the spell, but it starts out weirdly reminiscent of how the curse began....   Until you realize that the world outside is different and that you really do have ALL of the chances you thought you'd lost.

Surviving traumatic life events.  It's something I'm getting to be kind of good at.  To the point where I am SERIOUSLY not fun at parties, but somehow in a "she was totally fun!" kind of way.  2018 really underscored my ability to survive and grow and adapt as a person.

And the one thing I know is -- you absolutely cannot teach this skill to people, because in order to have it you have to go through your own trauma.  "Wisdom is not communicable."  It's still fun, though, feeling all of the pieces of the lessons that other people TRIED to teach to me fall into place.

We were at our favorite New Year's Party, and I fell into the Narcissistic Well of The Story of 2018.  I regret that, and I don't at the same time.  I saw people I hadn't seen in a long time who seemed genuinely interested in hearing about my/our year and frank -- there just isn't a SHORT version of 2018 to sharely
We started in a dark and dreary and cold place.  The city was covered in snow and ice and cabin fever was already at a fever pitch (my timehop shows jokes about The Shining and admitting I have never actually SEEN The Shining).  But the pain and discomfort and lack of sleep that my husband was experiencing was what amplified the intensity of that cabin fever and what set the year on its journey of medical drama and trauma... 

Which you can read about whenever my book finally comes out.  :)

Love this time of year when it's coupled with good weather.  I know we have no control over those weather cycles, so I just try to lean into how happy the nice weather makes me feel and jam out.

My personal theme for 2019 is come and get your love!  I love that song and truly -- it's how I'm embracing 2019.  I'm ready to start sprucing up this old Lee Family Estate (and maybe share some of that on this here dusty old blog) and doing some kooky stuff.  I'm auditioning for a play in about a week  -- it'll be nerve-wracking fun.

But FUN!  <3 p="">